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Overcoming Mental Health Struggles Through Running: Embracing the Journey of Patience and Persistence

Rowena Poole | Mental Health Advocate | Guest Writer
Apr 8

Your mind and your body are connected. They are what make you... you! With this knowledge, it makes sense that they can affect each other. Poor mental decisions may affect you physically. Great physical decisions can help boost your mood. Physical exercise not only keeps your body in shape, but it can also help keep your mind in check too.

Overcoming Mental Health Struggles Through Running: Embracing the Journey of Patience and Persistence

By the time I was a sophomore in college, I had been struggling with anxiety and depression for nearly six years. At this point in my life, my depression only spiked once in a blue moon. But it was still there, at a baseline level, every single day. The main struggle I had was trying to find small joys in everyday life. I found myself crestfallen most days, with no real reason. I decided to give running a try. Getting lost in a run helps clear my mind. I can simply drain out the world. All the worries could melt—even if only while moving.

The Struggles With Running

I never considered myself super athletic. I still don’t. But I had been told in my youth that I have an excellent runner’s stride. There was a gym on campus with several treadmills. With my childlike hope, I stepped onto the treadmill, and I ran for the first time in a while. I ran out of breath very quickly, but I knew everybody needed to build up their miles. I tried to stay as hopeful and determined as I could for a long time. But for some reason, something would always go wrong in my body. I seldom ran out of breath anymore. That was something I could deal with. Instead, I was greeted with cramps or nausea. On lucky days, I could run a mile, but it was not something I could do consistently. I felt like a failure—like I couldn’t even do one of the most basic things humans are built for. I tried different tactics and pulled advice from several health professionals. I would fuel up before a run, I would not eat, I would use the bathroom before, I would stretch... but there was nothing that made a constant difference. So did I give up? Of course, I did! Several different times.

Frustration and Defeat

This thing, running, this very simple activity, was supposed to help my mental health. Yet somehow, it only ever made me upset. I was frustrated with myself and angry at my body. I was doing it a favor, yet it never gave me the endorphins I yearned for. I tried again with a new hope for a different result. But the cramps and nausea would be waiting for me like an alligator with its mouth open. I wanted so badly to make it work. I wanted to smack that alligator clean across the face. But how exactly does one even go about that? An alligator is not a creature you can provoke, and getting rid of bodily annoyances is not an easy feat with a simple answer. I felt completely defeated. I was defeated by my own body—for doing something good for it no less! How dare it betray me like this? How dare it fall apart and crumble instead of bearing a slight discomfort for a greater good? So I gave up again. I had an on-again-off-again relationship with running for several years. I wanted so badly to make it work. I wanted to be a runner- to call myself a runner. The fantasy of the title kept the hobby loosely in my grasp.

The Breakthrough

The important thing here is that I never gave up entirely. I never looked at a treadmill with disgust—only desire and a tad bit of jealousy. One day I had finished a strength training workout. I had a nice long stretch. I checked the time. There were still about twenty minutes until I had to be home to get ready for work. I shrugged and decided to give it a whirl. I stepped onto the treadmill and gradually increased my speed. I kept it at five miles per hour—a nice and steady pace. Slow, but quick enough for me to jog. Breathe through your nose, I remembered. I ran a mile. I could not believe the jubilation that was running through my body.

I was cautious going forward. Taking note of everything I had done, I did it again on my next gym day: weights, stretch, nice and easy run. I stayed on the treadmill to keep track of my pace and ensure I wasn’t going too quickly. I find that for me, running on an empty stomach is best. Breathing through your nose helps preserve your breath. I ran another mile. Then I was at three. Motivation kicked in, as it often does following action. I wanted to challenge myself further. Soon enough, I was able to run on solid ground.

My body had finally gotten used to running. All I had to do was start over and slow down. The mental benefits of running? I find myself chipper on the days that I run. I’m smiling now while I’m moving instead of internally scolding myself for not being enough.

Embracing the Journey

It’s never easy to start something new. It’s totally frustrating when you keep trying, and nothing works. But I have learned that it is all about building. Start slow, build tolerance, and never compare your personal progress to anyone else’s. Your journey is yours. The most helpful tool you can take with you is self-compassion. Be patient, stay determined, understand your body, and be kind to it. The mind and body are connected. Listen to what they tell you. New journeys can be long and arduous. When things get tough, remember why you started and keep the end in sight. Keep moving forward; even if you must crawl, continue to move. Don’t ever be afraid to start from the beginning. Trying a new approach is still progress. Every step, even baby steps, brings you forward.

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Rowena Poole

Mental Health Advocate | Guest Writer of Moody Melon Magazine

I am a multimedia storyteller with a passion for supporting mental well-being. With a background in animation and creative writing, I use my skills to share meaningful messages that promote understanding and positive change.

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Jack Torrance: The Haunting Descent into Madness in "The Shining"

Julie Barris | Crisis Counselor | Therapist-in-Training
Sep 23, 2024

In Stephen King's The Shining, Jack Torrance serves as a chilling embodiment of the fragile line between sanity and madness. As a struggling writer and recovering alcoholic, Jack's journey to the Overlook Hotel spirals into a nightmarish descent that captivates and terrifies readers. Through Jack’s character, we can explore themes of isolation, addiction, and the complexities of mental health, offering insight into the factors that drive someone toward the brink.

The Struggle with Addiction

At the novel's onset, Jack is introduced as a man grappling with his past mistakes, particularly his struggles with alcoholism. His dependence on alcohol is not just a personal failing; it’s a hereditary burden, with echoes of his father’s own struggles. This cycle of addiction highlights a critical aspect of mental health: the intertwining of genetic predisposition and environmental factors.

Jack's initial resolve to stay sober is a testament to his desire for change, yet the pressures he faces—both from his family and the isolating atmosphere of the Overlook—soon begin to chip away at his resolve. The hotel itself acts as a character in its own right, amplifying Jack's inner turmoil and feeding on his vulnerabilities.

Isolation and Its Effects

As Jack, his wife Wendy, and their son Danny settle into the desolate Overlook Hotel for the winter, the oppressive isolation begins to take its toll. For Jack, the isolation is both a physical and psychological prison. It exacerbates his insecurities and ignites his darker impulses, transforming the hotel into a catalyst for his unraveling mind.

Isolation is a powerful theme in mental health discussions; it can intensify feelings of loneliness, despair, and paranoia. Jack's experience serves as a stark reminder of how solitude can exacerbate existing mental health challenges, leading to a spiral of negative thoughts and behaviors.

The Influence of the Overlook

The supernatural elements of the Overlook Hotel play a pivotal role in Jack's descent into madness. The malevolent presence within the hotel seems to exploit his weaknesses, whispering temptations that tug at his sanity. As Jack becomes increasingly obsessed with the hotel's history and his own writing, he slips deeper into delusion.

This phenomenon highlights the impact of external influences on mental health. Just as Jack is influenced by the hotel, many individuals face pressures from their environment—whether through toxic relationships, societal expectations, or traumatic experiences—that can push them toward darker paths.

The Descent into Madness

Jack’s transformation from a flawed yet sympathetic character to a terrifying figure is marked by escalating violence and paranoia. His relationships with Wendy and Danny fracture under the weight of his obsession and madness, illustrating how mental health issues can ripple outward, affecting loved ones and creating a cycle of pain.

The novel’s portrayal of Jack’s violent outbursts serves as a cautionary tale about untreated mental illness. It raises critical questions about accountability and the necessity of seeking help before reaching a breaking point.

Conclusion: A Cautionary Tale

Jack Torrance's journey in The Shining serves as a haunting exploration of mental health, addiction, and the fragility of the human mind. His character invites readers to reflect on the complexities of mental illness and the often-overlooked factors that contribute to one’s unraveling.

Through Jack's story, we are reminded of the importance of addressing mental health challenges with compassion and understanding. While The Shining is a work of horror, it also serves as a mirror, reflecting the very real struggles faced by those battling inner demons. By engaging with these themes, we can foster a deeper awareness of mental health issues and the critical need for support and understanding in our communities.

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