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The Battles We Don’t Need to Win: How Letting Go Can Set You Free

Julie Barris | Crisis Counselor | Therapist-in-Training
Oct 29, 2025

We all have moments when we feel wronged, misunderstood, or treated unfairly. Our instinct is to defend ourselves — to make things right. But what if not every battle deserves to be fought? What if the path to peace lies not in winning, but in walking away?

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For some, it’s not easy to let go. Even small slights can feel deeply personal — a sharp comment from a coworker, a friend who didn’t text back, a partner who dismissed your feelings. These moments can sting more than they should, and the impulse to react can be strong.

Often, that impulse comes from something deeper. If you grew up in an environment where you had to fight for attention, fairness, or emotional safety, your nervous system may have learned that fighting back is the only way to feel seen or safe. Childhood trauma teaches vigilance; it wires us to detect unfairness like radar. But as adults, that same radar can keep us stuck in emotional exhaustion.

Trauma and the Need to Fight

When you’ve experienced trauma — especially in childhood — your brain and body adapt in ways that once kept you safe but can later make peace feel unfamiliar. You may have learned early on that staying alert, speaking up, or defending yourself was the only way to prevent harm or get your needs met. Over time, this survival strategy becomes second nature.

As adults, those same instincts can surface in moments that don’t actually require defense. A misunderstanding at work or a disagreement with a loved one can trigger a deep, automatic response that feels much bigger than the situation itself. It’s not about the present moment — it’s about the echo of past pain.

This is why letting go can feel so hard: it’s not just about the current conflict. It’s about the younger version of you who never got the chance to rest, who had to stay ready for the next blow.

Healing means gently teaching your body and mind that it’s safe now — that not every disagreement is a threat, and not every silence means danger. Sometimes, safety looks like stepping back instead of stepping in.

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The Hidden Cost of Constant Battles

Not every fight leads to resolution — some just keep the pain alive. When we carry old wounds into new situations, we might find ourselves battling ghosts of the past rather than the person in front of us.

Constantly needing to defend yourself can take a toll:

Emotionally, it keeps you in a heightened state of alert, ready to react.
Physically, your body stays flooded with stress hormones that wear you down.
Relationally, it can push people away — not because they don’t care, but because the energy of conflict becomes too heavy to carry.

Holding on to every perceived injustice might feel like protecting yourself, but it can actually become a form of self-punishment — keeping you tethered to pain you deserve to release.

Letting Go Doesn’t Mean Losing

Letting go is often misunderstood. It doesn’t mean pretending that what happened was okay, or that your feelings don’t matter. It simply means choosing peace over power, and freedom over friction.

When you let go, you’re not giving up control — you’re taking it back. You decide that your mental and emotional energy will be spent on things that truly matter: healing, growth, connection, and joy.

Sometimes, silence is stronger than a sharp reply. Walking away is wiser than proving a point. You don’t have to attend every argument you’re invited to — especially the ones that threaten your peace.

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The Power of Perspective

Before reacting, pause and ask yourself:

Will this matter in a week, a month, or a year?
Am I fighting to heal, or just to be right?
Is this about now, or am I reliving an old wound?

Those questions can help you decide whether the fight serves your peace or steals it. Often, clarity comes not in the heat of battle, but in the calm that follows choosing not to engage.

The Freedom in Letting Be

In a culture that celebrates hustle, independence, and having the last word, letting go can feel counterintuitive — even rebellious. But that quiet act of surrender can be deeply healing. You make space for forgiveness, for peace, for new energy to flow in.

Letting go isn’t about erasing what happened; it’s about releasing the hold it has on you. It’s an act of reclaiming your inner calm.

A Final Reflection

You can’t control how others treat you, but you can always control how much space their actions take up in your heart.

So, the next time you feel that fire rise — that need to defend, correct, or fight back — take a breath and ask yourself:

Is this a battle I need to win… or one I need to release to finally be free?

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The Emotional Tornado of BPD: Understanding the Urge to Lash Out

Julie Barris | Crisis Counselor | Therapist-in-Training
Feb 3, 2025

The emotional tornado of BPD can whip up a storm of intense feelings, leaving you caught in a whirlwind of fear, anger, and desperation. In the chaos, it’s hard to distinguish between past wounds and present reality, making it difficult to find calm in the eye of the storm.

The Emotional Tornado of BPD: Understanding the Urge to Lash Out

For those living with Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD), emotional intensity is both a blessing and a curse. The capacity to feel emotions deeply—whether love, anger, or sadness—can bring moments of profound connection and empathy. But when those emotions spiral out of control, they can lead to impulsive reactions that hurt others and, ultimately, ourselves. One of the most destructive patterns for someone with BPD is the tendency to lash out when feeling triggered by perceived rejection, abandonment, or an overwhelming emotional experience.

If you’re someone who has found yourself lashing out in relationships, whether by shouting, withdrawing, or acting impulsively, you may be caught in a cycle that’s hard to break. But understanding why this happens and learning how to manage it can be transformative, not only for your relationships but for your own emotional well-being.

Why Do People with BPD Lash Out?

At the core of BPD is an intense fear of abandonment and rejection. This fear can trigger an emotional response that feels all-consuming. When you perceive a threat—real or imagined—of losing someone you care about, your fight-or-flight instinct kicks in. In the case of someone with BPD, fighting can often look like explosive anger, defensive reactions, or sudden, impulsive outbursts.

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These emotional reactions are rarely about the present situation. Instead, they are often a response to unresolved past trauma, a fractured sense of self, or a pattern of unstable relationships. Because of this, the feelings can feel overwhelmingly real in the moment, even though they might not be rooted in reality.

When emotions take over, it can seem impossible to stop yourself from acting out. But the key to stopping this pattern starts with understanding the root cause of the anger and learning how to slow down long enough to respond rather than react.

The Power of Impulse Control: Why It Feels Impossible to Stop

People with BPD often struggle with impulsivity, and this is particularly true when emotions run high. The emotional storms can be so overwhelming that it’s difficult to pause, think, and assess the situation before reacting. You might say things in anger that you regret later, or act out in a way that pushes people away when you actually crave connection.

What’s happening in these moments is a lack of emotional regulation, which is a hallmark of BPD. Your brain is flooded with overwhelming emotions, and the ability to pause and respond thoughtfully is diminished. In other words, it’s not that you want to lash out, it’s that the urge to do so feels nearly impossible to control in the heat of the moment.

The First Step: Recognizing Your Triggers

The most crucial step in learning to stop lashing out is recognizing what triggers you. Often, these triggers are tied to feelings of abandonment, rejection, or perceived criticism. For example, you might react with anger if you feel dismissed, ignored, or misunderstood. The feeling of being "not good enough" or "unworthy" can also trigger a defensiveness that leads to outbursts.

Tip: Keep a journal to track moments when you feel the urge to lash out. What happened right before you felt triggered? Were there specific words or behaviors that set you off? By identifying these patterns, you can start to anticipate when you might be emotionally triggered and take steps to manage your reactions before they spiral.

Building Emotional Resilience: It’s Not About Control, It’s About Awareness

Lashing out is often a way to cope with intense emotions, but in the long term, it creates more chaos than relief. Building emotional resilience is key to stopping this cycle. Emotional resilience isn’t about repressing or "controlling" your emotions; it’s about learning how to manage them in a healthy way. The goal is to give yourself the space to feel what you’re feeling without acting impulsively.

Tip: Mindfulness exercises can help you become more aware of your emotions before they take over. Practices like deep breathing, grounding exercises, or simple awareness of your thoughts and feelings can help you slow down when you feel the urge to react. The idea is to pause before speaking or acting.

For example, when you feel triggered, try saying to yourself, “I feel anger, but I don’t have to act on it right now.” Breathe deeply, and allow yourself a moment to process. Giving yourself a few seconds to “reset” can be a powerful tool for avoiding an outburst.

Practice Self-Compassion

Many people with BPD struggle with feelings of shame and guilt after lashing out. You might feel as though you’ve damaged your relationships, or that you're “bad” for acting impulsively. However, it’s important to remember that emotional outbursts are part of the disorder, not a reflection of your worth. Being kind to yourself in the aftermath of a meltdown can be just as crucial as learning to control your impulses in the future.

Tip: When you do lash out, take responsibility for your actions without self-blame. Apologize, but also give yourself grace. Healing from BPD is a process, and there will be setbacks. The goal isn’t perfection, but progress.

Therapy: The Key to Long-Term Change

Dialectical Behavior Therapy (DBT) is one of the most effective treatments for people with BPD who want to learn how to manage their emotions and reduce impulsive behaviors. DBT focuses on teaching skills such as distress tolerance, emotional regulation, and mindfulness, all of which can help prevent outbursts. In therapy, you can learn how to work through emotional distress in a healthier way and build stronger, more stable relationships.

Tip: If you’re in therapy or considering it, be open with your therapist about your struggle with lashing out. A therapist trained in DBT can help you develop personalized strategies for managing your reactions and help you understand the underlying causes of your anger.

Breaking the Cycle: How to Start Today

The road to stopping emotional outbursts can feel daunting, but it begins with small steps. By understanding your triggers, learning to pause before reacting, and practicing self-compassion, you can begin to break the cycle of lashing out. With therapy, mindfulness, and consistent effort, it is possible to rewrite the patterns of emotional chaos into ones of control, communication, and healthy connection.

Eye-Opening Question: Can you challenge yourself to pause before reacting, even when the urge to lash out feels overwhelming?